Anna's Story - Part 17

(In our last episode, Jeremy called and wanted to visit with Anna.  He wanted them to get back together again, but Anna said no and watched him walk out of the front door.  Life had changed for Anna.)


Part 17

The day following Jeremy’s visit was much better.  Anna still had a lot to do at the house, especially in the garage, and she was a little behind on her CPA review work.  Plus, work and finding a second to get a bite to eat. 

In a way, Anna saw herself as a jet airplane in a circling pattern above a major airport in the United States, waiting for a chance to descend down and land.  She was up there with the eagles, feeling unsettled and ungrounded but yet at the same time she had intensely detailed sight. 

She and Jeremy were miles apart now, in just that fairly short amount of time.  He was still moving towards whatever goals he had made up for himself and she was completely uprooted.  And living in a new place, well, it seemed new to her since she hadn’t lived at home in more than eight years.

She lovingly decorated the living room and kitchen with things her mother had always loved, things her mother had dusted a thousand times.  The big wooden bowl where her mother always had fruit for after school was right where it used to sit.  The dishes her mother only used for company were now Anna’s everyday dishes.  What was the point of saving them?  She once heard a story that a priest told about his beloved dad who closeted the many Father’s Day gifts so that he could save them for a special occasion or maybe just save them.  When he died the family found all of the gifts in the closet, unworn.  Anna took that sermon much to heart.  Life wasn’t about what we can save; it’s about living.

Finally, in one splurge, Anna bought a lovely area rug for the kitchen.  She reasoned that she could have it cleaned when the carpet cleaner came and it would give color to the space that was mostly neutrals.  It looked beautiful and picked up her spirits a little that day as she continued guiding her jet around and around.

And yet, since Anna was human, she did reflect for a bit about how good it was to see Jeremy’s face, the person she believed she loved so much she missed church for him. 

Only one more week for the review and evenings would be Anna’s again.